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Chikusa ([personal profile] kokuyoyo) wrote in [community profile] tornheart2017-05-14 12:17 am

001 - brothers who fuss together stay together

Who: Ciro and Gen Bonavita (Chikusa and Makoto)
When: May 13, middle of the night, right after this nonsense // and then May 21 after this
Where: The brothers' apartments on school grounds
What: Exchanging one text and then another, the brothers find comfort with each other.
Warnings: Minor self harm, mental issues

Ciro knows that he doesn't look exactly his best as he waits out the elevator's descent onto the ground floor. Pajama bottoms are bad enough, but he's been wearing his "schrodinger's cat is alive/dead" shirt as nightwear for a straight week without tossing it into his laundry basket. But it's the middle of the night- he doubts he's going to run across anyone who will be able to judge him. Possibly because they might be drunk; he's heard about some of the older students having parties in their apartments with some of the usual nightly haunts now barred to them for obvious reasons.

Right now, however, all he cares about is getting down to his brother's apartment. The halls are quiet when he steps out of the elevator, but he still makes his steps quick and strides long as he goes down it.

Honestly... He almost welcomes it, although he feels a little guilty about it. That hallucination... It felt too real. Even now, although he knows he's walking on carpet through a brightly lit building, all he can think about is the feel of cold grass pressing into too-thin pants and his body burning against the night's chill. More than his surroundings, however, he still remembers so clearly that other boy his age who he had locked eyes with. One blue, the other red with a strange pupil, and the way his heart had twisted....

His feelings for that boy had been stronger than anything Ciro thinks he's ever felt before... And that alone, he doesn't know how to feel about. Either way, he'll really have to talk to Counselor Katsuki... He'd thought his medication was working fine, but if he's hallucinating, well... He guesses they're back to square one.

Shoving away both thoughts- that of the boy, and what he'll have to talk about with his counselor- Ciro stops in front of the oh-so familiar door number that he's known for a good few years now. It's unnecessary, but he knocks anyway before pulling out the spare key his brother gave to him when he first came to dorm at the school.

"Gen?" he asks as he opens the door open slightly, bulging messenger bag bumping against his hip and then the door as he peers in. "I'm here."
transient_specter: (hey woah no don't kick me)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Gen drops his bag and heads over to Ciro, going to take his wrists firmly. "Ciro." His voice is low, urgent. He doesn't want his brother to hurt himself. He can't - he can't risk it. He doesn't want to imagine him being hurt - the very idea makes his stomach churn.

He looks deeply into his brother's face, studying him, his own mouth a thin line. The phone is noted, but ignored for the moment. "Dig into my arm if you have to." He's had enough students hit his arms to not be bothered by pain. "Just don't - don't hurt yourself."
transient_specter: (okay that hurts)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
He grits his teeth, and then tugs on Ciro some more. "We need to clean them up." He can't. He can't lose Ciro. Even if he's physically here, he can't lose his brother to whatever's going on. "If it doesn't hurt now, it probably will later. You can't - you shouldn't -" Every stumble makes him feel awful. He's no good at phrasing. "... Please don't hurt yourself."

Gen lets go of his brother's wrists suddenly to draw him into a tight hug. His heart is beating too fast, but it's fine. He needs to protect his brother. He needs to be the -

'Big brother?'

- That's what the girl in that... whatever it was... had called him. And while he doesn't know who she is, that is what he is.
transient_specter: (okay who do i have to punch)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
"... I know. I know it does, because I'm feeling the same way." He sits, nudging the phone out of the way and onto the floor. It'll be fine, and what's important is keeping a hold on his brother. "I had another weird hallucination. I don't know what's going on, either. But I just..." Holding onto his sibling. Keeping them close. True, that girl didn't look like she was going to hurt herself, but still...

He presses his cheek against the top of his brother's head, rocking him slowly. "We'll get through this. I promise."
transient_specter: (holy shit that's cute)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Then screw them." It's easy enough to say, and the words come almost naturally. "I don't think you're an idiot, or insane. You're my brother. We're family. That's enough for me." His early years are a little blurry, but he remembers a little of his previous family. Of not being wanted, of being abandoned, and the fear once he was adopted...

... But it worked out. It worked out just fine, and he has a family who cares and he has Ciro and it's enough. TO know someone actually loves him, despite his resistance. "We'll figure out what's real, one step at a time. I can't do this alone, Ciro." He nudges his brother a little, a smile creeping onto his face. "I'm not all that smart. I need your help. Will you help me?"
transient_specter: (look at how glowy i am)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
He smiles a little, and ruffles Ciro's hair gently. "First, though, I think you need some rest. You can't think too well if you're exhausted. So let's get you into bed." It's really late, and even though Ciro is fifteen, he still probably shouldn't be up this late. "Even if you think you can't sleep... I'll stay with you until you do. Nothing will go wrong while I'm here, okay? I promise."

Nothing to Ciro, at least. He can't say as much for his own dreams, but whatever.
transient_specter: (okay who do i have to punch)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-22 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
... He'd really rather Ciro not mess around with his phone right now, but he can't exactly stop him. "... They are." He can feel his own phone vibrating gently in his back pocket. There's no denying that they're both using the app. But why? What the hell is going on? Panic starts to claw at his chest - he doesn't want Ciro involved in whatever this is. He wants his brother safe. Still, he manages to choke a few more words out.

"... My name pops up as Makoto. That's not - that's not my name. But you'll know it's me." He's not 'Makoto Fukami'. That makes no sense. He tries to swallow, but his throat feels too tight. He winces as a headache starts building, and he tightens his grip around his brother. "Ciro... be careful." Gen struggles to keep his breathing even, but it's picking up and he's not sure why.
transient_specter: (super suspicious of you now)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-22 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"... It's fine." He does his best to steady himself, to focus on his brother. He keeps holding him, shaking his head. He's here for Ciro right now, not the other way around. "Never mind. I'm just... worried. With how everything is right now..." That app included.

Focusing... right. Ciro... "That's what I'm supposed to do, right? Worry? And kick the ass of anyone who'd hurt you."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-23 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
"... That might help." He finally lets Ciro go, ruffling his hair a little gently. "I can help make it if you want." That is probably not a great idea. Gen's cooking skills are... not great. But he has to help somehow... and tea is hard to screw up.
transient_specter: (holy shit that's cute)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-24 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
It's cute. He doesn't really drink tea much, but he can appreciate the cute tea things his brother buys. He nods and heads over, picking up the pot carefully and filling it from the sink. It's not too full - he knows how gross leaving water overnight can get - but there's enough for a couple of cups.
transient_specter: (I JUST HAD SEEEEEEX)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-25 10:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah." He brings the water over, pouring it carefully into Ciro's mug, then his own. He doesn't pay the thing much mind - Ciro's always had kind of random mugs. He isn't really bothered by it much, as long as Ciro keeps his room neat. Not that he'd go running to the family if he didn't - just give Ciro a Look and sigh. That's the big brotherly thing to do, right? He's pretty sure, at least - he's mostly just been winging it and getting by on that.

Once the water is poured and the pot is set down, he puts a hand on Ciro's shoulder, trying to steady him while they wait for the tea to steep. "... It'll be okay, Ciro." Everything will be. It has to be. Even if Ciro isn't feeling well... it'll pass.
transient_specter: (you like it rough huh?)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-26 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"... It was. I don't know that this is related. But... if the curfew won't keep you safe, I will. I promise." He squeezes his brother's shoulder gently before taking his hand away. He's always been overprotective, and he knows it, but keeping Ciro safe is important. He's not sure what he would do if Ciro got hurt or killed on his watch.
transient_specter: (look i'm brooding)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-27 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
"... I'll do what I can." He's mostly tempered his more directionless anger from his younger days, likely only a distant memory in Ciro's mind. Part of the reason had been fear that they'd send him back and un-adopt him, and part of it had been starting martial arts to channel his anger. Still, the urge to hurt anyone who might hurt his brother is still there, and he can't help but be angry that his brother is feeling so poorly. He squeezes Ciro's hand gently, reaching out with his other hand to smooth the hair away from his brother's eyes.
transient_specter: (okay that hurts)

[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-27 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
He pulls his free hand back eventually, just watching his brother breathe and try to calm himself. Once he does look up, Gen nods. "I think so. Go sit down and I'll bring it over to you." He knows his brother is probably going to be fine, but he doesn't want him suddenly going off-balance and sending tea flying everywhere. He could get hurt.

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