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Chikusa ([personal profile] kokuyoyo) wrote in [community profile] tornheart2017-05-14 12:17 am

001 - brothers who fuss together stay together

Who: Ciro and Gen Bonavita (Chikusa and Makoto)
When: May 13, middle of the night, right after this nonsense // and then May 21 after this
Where: The brothers' apartments on school grounds
What: Exchanging one text and then another, the brothers find comfort with each other.
Warnings: Minor self harm, mental issues

Ciro knows that he doesn't look exactly his best as he waits out the elevator's descent onto the ground floor. Pajama bottoms are bad enough, but he's been wearing his "schrodinger's cat is alive/dead" shirt as nightwear for a straight week without tossing it into his laundry basket. But it's the middle of the night- he doubts he's going to run across anyone who will be able to judge him. Possibly because they might be drunk; he's heard about some of the older students having parties in their apartments with some of the usual nightly haunts now barred to them for obvious reasons.

Right now, however, all he cares about is getting down to his brother's apartment. The halls are quiet when he steps out of the elevator, but he still makes his steps quick and strides long as he goes down it.

Honestly... He almost welcomes it, although he feels a little guilty about it. That hallucination... It felt too real. Even now, although he knows he's walking on carpet through a brightly lit building, all he can think about is the feel of cold grass pressing into too-thin pants and his body burning against the night's chill. More than his surroundings, however, he still remembers so clearly that other boy his age who he had locked eyes with. One blue, the other red with a strange pupil, and the way his heart had twisted....

His feelings for that boy had been stronger than anything Ciro thinks he's ever felt before... And that alone, he doesn't know how to feel about. Either way, he'll really have to talk to Counselor Katsuki... He'd thought his medication was working fine, but if he's hallucinating, well... He guesses they're back to square one.

Shoving away both thoughts- that of the boy, and what he'll have to talk about with his counselor- Ciro stops in front of the oh-so familiar door number that he's known for a good few years now. It's unnecessary, but he knocks anyway before pulling out the spare key his brother gave to him when he first came to dorm at the school.

"Gen?" he asks as he opens the door open slightly, bulging messenger bag bumping against his hip and then the door as he peers in. "I'm here."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 12:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Gen's fortunate, he knows that. He has a family who cares, a decent job, and good grades. But right now, he's having a problem thinking of himself as fortunate. He hadn't been lying to Ciro - his head and his chest both hurt, but it's more than that.

He's heard about phantom pain - feeling pain in something that isn't there. Is this something like that? Because that hallucination...

'I'll... keep your hopes alive...' Not enough vision left to really see anything other than a smudged face, and then the feeling of floating and his entire body shattering -

It hurts. Everything hurts. Is he sick? He's not sure. He looks up from his bed - he hadn't bothered to even worry about letting Ciro in. He'd gotten a glass of water, but by the time he'd managed to get over to his bed... well, the plastic cup on the floor is enough evidence of what had happened. "Ci -" His voice is rough. He clears his throat and tries again. "Hey, Ciro."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"I didn't think it would be, either, but I tried to get up and -"

Everything's disorienting, and when he tries to think back on what he saw, the details start to slip. "I don't know, I think I hallucinated something. I'm pretty sure it wasn't the cafeteria food, but..." He struggles to sit up, leaning on the pillow behind him for support. "It's fading, but I don't... know." He's babbling, and he's not sure why. He's usually well put together, so why... ?

Nothing makes sense right now.
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
He flinches slightly at the touch, but settles back down again. Right... just focus. Focus on his brother's touch and the fact that he's fine, he's not breaking or anything. He closes his eyes and takes a few deep breaths. "... Thank you."

He's fine. This is just... something strange brought on by stress or something. It'll pass, right? It should. "I don't want to give you even more trouble... but I know you'll insist anyway."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's true." He tugs his blanket up and tries to settle down, but thinking of what he saw just makes him flinch. It can't have been real... he'd never been hurt that badly. Sure, he'd broken a few bones during training, but even that paled to what he'd felt, just for an instant...
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
He attempts to sit up a little bit, just so he can get the water down. He takes a sip, and then uses two hands to place it on the dresser. He takes a deep breath and shakes his head. "It wasn't a panic attack. It was... just a hallucination. But it hurt. Hallucinations are just visual things, right?" Maybe he'll look them up... or maybe not, he's not sure he wants to get himself even more worried over something stupid.
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-14 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
He grumbles a little bit, shaking his head. "You know I don't like seeing the counselor..." He'd been dragged in for several things over his school career - breaking up fights, starting fights, general moodiness... but never anything like this. He just needs his family - he doesn't need to talk about personal problems with anyone else, not even his friends. "But I can't stop you from calling him."

Gen frowns and reaches out, squeezing Ciro's leg gently. "Maybe in the morning if I don't feel better." He can tough it out. Probably.
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-15 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
He shakes his head a little. "Not that I don't like your cooking, but I already had dinner. And I have to get up and go teach some of the lower classes tomorrow morning..." He can't just call out. ... Well, he probably could, but he knows some of the kids won't do as well with a replacement teacher. Gen goes quiet for a few long moments, before shaking his head.

"I saw... someone. I don't know who they were - it was hard to see. I told them I'd keep their hopes alive. But then I felt pain everywhere, like my entire body was shattering... and then it was gone. I... I don't know what it was."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
This time, it's Gen who heads to his brother's room. He's got a small bag with a set of sleep clothes in it. He's got the key - he almost never uses it, since he respects Ciro's space - so he heads in, closing the door behind him as quietly as possible. His head still has some lingering pain, but it's fine. As long as he can help Ciro...

"... I'm here."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Gen drops his bag and heads over to Ciro, going to take his wrists firmly. "Ciro." His voice is low, urgent. He doesn't want his brother to hurt himself. He can't - he can't risk it. He doesn't want to imagine him being hurt - the very idea makes his stomach churn.

He looks deeply into his brother's face, studying him, his own mouth a thin line. The phone is noted, but ignored for the moment. "Dig into my arm if you have to." He's had enough students hit his arms to not be bothered by pain. "Just don't - don't hurt yourself."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
He grits his teeth, and then tugs on Ciro some more. "We need to clean them up." He can't. He can't lose Ciro. Even if he's physically here, he can't lose his brother to whatever's going on. "If it doesn't hurt now, it probably will later. You can't - you shouldn't -" Every stumble makes him feel awful. He's no good at phrasing. "... Please don't hurt yourself."

Gen lets go of his brother's wrists suddenly to draw him into a tight hug. His heart is beating too fast, but it's fine. He needs to protect his brother. He needs to be the -

'Big brother?'

- That's what the girl in that... whatever it was... had called him. And while he doesn't know who she is, that is what he is.
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
"... I know. I know it does, because I'm feeling the same way." He sits, nudging the phone out of the way and onto the floor. It'll be fine, and what's important is keeping a hold on his brother. "I had another weird hallucination. I don't know what's going on, either. But I just..." Holding onto his sibling. Keeping them close. True, that girl didn't look like she was going to hurt herself, but still...

He presses his cheek against the top of his brother's head, rocking him slowly. "We'll get through this. I promise."
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Then screw them." It's easy enough to say, and the words come almost naturally. "I don't think you're an idiot, or insane. You're my brother. We're family. That's enough for me." His early years are a little blurry, but he remembers a little of his previous family. Of not being wanted, of being abandoned, and the fear once he was adopted...

... But it worked out. It worked out just fine, and he has a family who cares and he has Ciro and it's enough. TO know someone actually loves him, despite his resistance. "We'll figure out what's real, one step at a time. I can't do this alone, Ciro." He nudges his brother a little, a smile creeping onto his face. "I'm not all that smart. I need your help. Will you help me?"
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-05-21 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
He smiles a little, and ruffles Ciro's hair gently. "First, though, I think you need some rest. You can't think too well if you're exhausted. So let's get you into bed." It's really late, and even though Ciro is fifteen, he still probably shouldn't be up this late. "Even if you think you can't sleep... I'll stay with you until you do. Nothing will go wrong while I'm here, okay? I promise."

Nothing to Ciro, at least. He can't say as much for his own dreams, but whatever.

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